Walls lined with breathless oaths, folded in velvet rot. No light dares step across the threshold; no name passes between stone and silence. Still, the air remembers. Still, the dust stirs with yearning. Behind each sealed door, a shrine carved from ache—untouched, untended, yet worshipped all the same.       Devotion does not die; it fossilizes.      What once whispered now watches. What once loved now lingers.

evander / valeanhe/him33(GMT-4)

// 001 : the puppet.        
Valean tidak lahir. Ia dikemas. Disuapi kalimat-kalimat palsu dan dipakaikan senyum yang dikancingkan erat ke pipinya. Ia tumbuh di balik cermin, dengan ibunya sebagai dalang dan penonton pertama. Tak pernah tahu hangat pelukan, hanya tepuk tangan dingin dan jadwal syuting. Anak-anak lain punya tubuh—ia cuma properti.

// 002 : the puppet show.        
Ia dijual oleh ibunya sendiri—pada seorang maestro seni yang dikenal memahat estetika dari tubuh manusia. Lelaki bejat itu menjadikan Valean obsesi musenya, tapi terlalu mahal untuk disentuh, untuk dirusak. Maka anak-anak lain yang dijadikan tubuh pengganti. Mereka diperkosa dengan seragam napas yang harus mengikuti ritme Valean.Dari pojok ruangan, Valean dipaksa menonton lelaki itu menggeliat di atas tubuh para bocah sambil mendesah satu nama yang tak pernah dijamah:

Valean. Valean. Valean

// 003 : the curtain call.        
Yang ia punya hanya satu teman. Tapi bocah itu mati tergantung, rahasianya membusuk di leher yang tak sempat bicara. Dunia menutup telinga. Lelaki itu terlalu berkuasa. Maka Valean dijadikan kambing hitam—pemikat, pemancing, boneka yang konon selalu tahu tapi tak pernah berteriak.Tak ada yang tahu ia juga diancam. Tak ada yang peduli ia pun ikut mati—tanpa tali. Lalu ia Menghilang.// 004 : the puppetmaster.      
Evander Darrion lahir dari bangkai Valean. Nama baru, suara baru, dendam baru pada dunia dengan lidah yang kini bisa menjilat balik. Ia tak lagi duduk di kursi penonton; kini ia panggung, tirai, dan pisau. Ia tak menari—ia menarik tali. Dan saat semua boneka menjerit dalam sorot lampu, ia hanya tersenyum. Kali ini, semua luka adalah miliknya. Dan ia yang menjahitnya sendiri.

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NAME.Evander darrion. (valean)
AGE.33.
birthdate.1992/08/15.
gender.male.
pronouns.he/him.
orientation.gay.
occupation.creative director.
zodiac.leo.
faceclaim.caleb.

walks the edge of silence

  • Keeps his promises. Especially the unspoken ones.

  • Speaks softly. Gets his way anyway.

  • Nicotine doesn’t calm him. It just fills the silence.

  • Smells like cardamom and leather

  • Noddle is his favorite. The simpler, the better.

  • If you think he’s flirting, he’s not.

writer's
whim.

welcome to the part where i break the fourth wall, just enough to hand you a flashlight. if you're planning to stay, these are the things you might want to know before you knock on his door.

    01.         this character is a work of fiction, created purely for roleplay purposes. his face belongs to caleb from lads, but the rest—his name, his history, his darkness—is entirely original and not affiliated with the muse’s real-life persona. everything is pretend, but always written with care.    02.        this storyline includes NSFW and dead dove: do not eat themes. this is not really a fluff-centered character. darker plots are welcome and actively explored, but only if fully consented and discussed beforehand. soft genres are also possible—evan adapts as long as you’re on the same page.
content may include :

  • trauma and psychological manipulation

  • emotionally imbalanced or toxic dynamics

  • power play and control

  • sexual content, including kink-coded behavior

  • obsession, degradation, or manipulation through intimacy

    03.        english and bahasa indonesia are used interchangeably in writing, depending on mood, tone, or partner. evan speaks both fluently, and shifts between them with ease. if you’re particular about language preferences, feel free to let the writer know.    04.         dialogues written in quotation marks (“...”) are words spoken by evan—in character (IC). any narration that begins with an and symbol (&.) belongs to the writer—out of character (OOC). feel free to reply in any format; just signal clearly when you’re IC or OOC too.

PENNED BY     VER.        

    001     //     act.         Evander is warmth personified—smiling easily, speaking with charisma that feels genuine, effortless. He remembers names, birthdays, favorite coffee orders. In every room, he’s the center of gravity without ever demanding it. Colleagues admire him, clients adore him. A natural storyteller, a team’s safe space, a joy to be around. No one questions it—because no one sees the script behind the smile.    002     //     watch.         What looks like empathy is often extraction. He listens not just to understand, but to acquire. Casual conversations become quiet dossiers. He notices tremors in tone, hesitations in breath, inconsistencies between smiles and words—and he stores them all. Nothing is random in his orbit; everything is useful, eventually. He doesn’t manipulate to harm, but to orchestrate outcomes. Control is not a desire. It is a necessity.    003     //     own.         He doesn’t fall in love. He claims. Once someone matters to him, the boundaries dissolve. He learns their habits, fears, passwords, sleeping hours—under the guise of care, cloaked in kindness. He protects, yes. But not without surveillance. Not without obsession. And once you're his, you’ll never really be alone again. Even when you think you are

  • AN IMPORTANT NOTE HERE   ...   This profile is not entirely accessible to external parties. Certain behaviors remain undocumented, or intentionally omitted. Proceed assuming incomplete data.

☆   =   platonic†   =   romantic
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